Skin
I am frustrated with the persistence of worry. I am ready to shed the skins of the past before the layers become too thick to bear.
I am a man with too many things to think about, too much to contain. If only it were a problem of sweetness—too much honey for too few jars, too much sunshine for a lazy pontoon, large lots of leftovers… but I speak of a different sort of abundance. I speak of the kind only the walls (gods) understand, troubles whispered against silent ceilings and shouted against road-scratched windshields, notions wrought from iron, hardened not by fire but by the soft redness of the back of the eyelid. I speak of the deafness of caring, the mind railing against a world that spins and spins whether the shout is loud or not.
I speak of shit. I speak of life. There is more than enough to go around.
Sighs and French horns, toy chests and cellos, dinosaur wallpaper and a ten dollar bill, Varnish remover and open floor grates, blue tarp and shredded roofing shingles, neighbors, streetball, big wheels, lightning bug contests, a bike and bricks, an angry dog, a dead one, a missing hamster, a well-meant soul who encircled it all with broken fences. I speak in nouns and riddles because the sentences are not yet ready to be formed. They are there; they form a pool of snakes. They boil below my mind; hissing and spitting, but contained they are and will remain.
Someday a crack will form and the snakes will escape.
I promise.
1 Comments:
At June 5, 2008 at 7:25 AM , Joanna said...
I think the crack has already begun to form; its blue prints are there.
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